The last couple of je’s (journal entries) I did I discussed boys, birth control, and work. I guess I’ll stick with those topics and let y’all know how I’m doing in every department. I’m also going to touch on a couple different topics in this je.
The short guy
As you all know I was dating that short guy. The one who was significantly shorter than me and my ass could not get over it. We were talking every day and making plans to go to all these different places. He would take me to the movies and out to eat pretty often. We saw A Quiet Place and I think one other movie together but I can’t remember what it was. He didn’t mind spending money on me and I think I liked that. One day I was talking to my friends about him kinda introducing the fact that we were talking. That’s when one of my old best friends from hs said that he had been in her messages a long time ago. That made me super heated. Not over the fact that it happened but the fact that his shady ass didn’t mention a single thing knowing me and her were close. I texted him right then and there. Let me see if I can go screenshot it
After that text convo we literally did not speak again. It was such a weird way to end things now that I reflect back on it. It just made me pretty upset and the fact that he didn’t even try and defend himself further or the relationship further solidified he wasn’t the one lol. I just kept it pushing.
The 6’4 guy
I had told you guys that me and him were really acting like a couple but then I withdrew from him because I knew we would never be a couple. We were still hanging out and we’d make out and go to movies. He knew I was actively dating other people but he would just kinda mention seeing tweets about other men and how it bothered him. I tried to end things w him but all that did was attract us to one another more. Here’s where there was a turn of events. Me and the tall guy were texting all the time and one day he texted me this after seeing my twitter….
Since then we hadn’t spoken and I went to my younger cousins graduation this passed Wednesday. I was pushing Dominic through the crowd when OF FUCKING COURSE I RUN INTO HIM. He was standing right in the way of where I was trying to walk. There was a sea of people on both sides of him so I had no choice but to walk by him. I saw all his friends around and I’m like UHHHH GOD WHY?? So I decide I’m going to walk by him and say hi because he probably already saw me I mean I’m tall as hell. So I go up and say hi and he kinda does like this weird sigh at me. We hugged and I went on my way. It was a super weird encounter and his friends were lowkey looking at me and made me feel even more uncomfortable. I know mister hates me but I mean there’s nothing I could do. I currently have a new man and he wasn’t willing to commit so honestly I can’t be blamed.
My baby daddy aka the new man
This mysterious new man is my sons dad! I know what you’re all thinking JULIANNA HOW COULD YOU YOU’RE A DUMB ASS???! That’s the same exact thing I thought when I even considered talking to him again. After all the bad he’s put me through he really didn’t deserve a minute of my time. It started in May on Mother’s Day. He asked my mom if he could drop off some gifts for me and her. She agreed. When he dropped them off I wasn’t home so I asked her to open them. She did and there was a box of shoes, a letter saying everything he missed about me, and a bunch of pictures of us when we were together. I texted him later that night when I got home and asked said I got the gifts. He then went on to tell me he’s missed me and he knows he fucked up. We agreed we needed to talk in person and we did later that week. During our talk I made him be a hundred percent honest and answer all my questions I had. The talk ended up hurting and making me even more pissed. We moved on though and agreed that we could try and work through things. Since then dom has loved when he’s with us both at the same time. He wasn’t used to it at first. One day we took him to Chuck E. Cheese and he had knocked out on the car ride. When we got there I was kissing my bd and we looked back and Dom had THE BIGGEST SMILE ON HIS FACE. Like I said he’s just super happy when he has us both together. I know it’s going to take a lot for me to trust him again or even take him serious. We’ll see how it goes honestly but I wanted to let you all know.
I told you all how I have the Mirena in me. Over the last couple of months I noticed it does give me a couple pimples. I’ve never had acne and very rarely would get pimples growing up so now getting them because of the mirena annoys me. I’m not used to having them. They go away pretty quickly and aren’t too bad. It’s just an annoying side effect as I said. I also notice the headaches I feel like I get those and mood swings pretty often. I haven’t gained any weight I pretty much have maintained the same weight but I’m trying to lose weight. I don’t know if the IUD will make it harder. I have had a lot of spotting and my periods haven’t lightened yet. I’m hoping they do soon!
My job at the day center is so tiring. We just work pretty long hours for not that much money. My clients make it worth it though they know how to make my days. I told you all about how I was working at the dispensary too. I was trying to just work saturdays but the manager wanted me full time and I can’t do that. I want to find a second job though. I need to make more money. My coworkers are still super cool. I went to a brewery when I was off yesterday with one of the new guys and this guy who started around the same time I did. We had a couple beers and talked about work. One of the girls who used to work at the center invited me out but I wound up going out with my hair stylist and her bf.
A dom update:
As you all know my sons name is dom! He’s about to be a year and a half on the 20th. He’s huge!!!! He’s literally in 5T which is really big. And he’s a size nine in shoe. Dom knows so many words. At his last check up the doctor was saying “does he know at least ten words” and I’m like girl he can say whole sentences. He’s so bright!!!! He loves the song baby shark and “Outstanding” by the Gap Band. Dom also knows some spanish and loves listening to reggaeton and Banda! He loves eating and he loves going “bye”. I think he enjoys car rides and getting out of the house. He goes to the park like every day. He can be really good with other kids or he can be really mean so I really have to watch him. I can’t get him out of scratching and hitting. I’m trying to work on it with him he just gets very angry. He’s also really sweet though and he’ll give kisses and say “nice” and rub you.
Here’s a couple of pictures
I think that’s all I really wanted to talk about right now. I’m hoping I’ll be back to write again soon and not wait till next year LOL. How are you all doing? How’s summer for you?
Love, Hooly 💖